TITLE: Tell you a secret
AUTHOR: Melymbrosia
FEEDBACK: melymbrosia_voyage@yahoo.com
SPOILERS: "Trust No 1"

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*Tell you a secret,* Charlie would say, candy-sticky whisper in her
ear.  No-girls-allowed clubhouses, forbidden practice with BB guns.
*Tell you a secret,* but she never told him hers.  She never told
anyone hers.

Her hair is ash blonde.  She uses L'Oreal Feria No. 80 to dye it and
Maybelline True Illusion to conceal the mole by her lip.  She wears
size 7 shoes and frock-cut black blazers and she used to wear blue
shirts that were too tight so she could catch Mulder's sidelong gaze.

The first time she kissed a boy she was twelve.  The first time she
kissed a girl she was twenty-two.  The first time she kissed Mulder
she ended up suffocating on the floor, but she's always known They
knew *that*.

He mocked her in a basement and told her secrets in a hotel room by
candlelight. She got dirt beneath her fingernails scrabbling for
bones. He gave her a keychain and a cupcake with a sparkler in it.
He woke her
up at midnight to give her a blueberry yogurt, three cherry Jolly
Ranchers, and a fax from the lab analyzing the red goo they'd found at
the crime scene, and she didn't realize till years afterward that this
was his version of a love letter.  When his mother died, they spent
the night holding each other in his bed, just listening to each other
breathe.

The Gunmen have been over the apartment with the thoroughness of
furious and embarrassed men. They swear they've found all the bugs,
the tiny camera eyes.  She nods and makes herself smile at them, and
pretends she doesn't know this is useless.  Human technology can't
spin bugs as fine as thread; it's not human technology she's dealing
with.  She could be wearing her spies against her skin. Or beneath it.

They probably don't even need a chip for William.  He could be
carrying betrayal in his own bloodstream.  Growing battalions of
nanospies in the marrow of his bones.

Crowded in a stairwell with Alex Krycek, hiding from monsters in the
dark.  *Tell you a secret,* Krycek whispered.

*Tell you a secret, Agent Scully.  There aren't any secrets anymore.*
 

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